Even though I've been actually uploading now, this goddamn journal entry has stuck. I'm writing this now solely because it has nagged at my nerves too much and i must see CHANGE.

Anywho.... Big week ahead for me. Going to see The Matrix: Reloaded at midnight on wednesday.... b/c I'm just that much of a mental case. Then I'm attending (read as: obssessively stalking around) an anime convention for the weekend. Who knows, maybe some talent will rub off from all the pretty pixtures. I can hope.... *grins*

Ego tripping is almost inevitable for me around here these days.... I feel so dwarfed it's not even funny. Maybe if I just keep slogging ahead it'll all work out.

Remember in kindergarten when the artist of note was the kid whose people were rendered with five fingers per hand (rather than the usual seven)? I was that kid, and then I fell behind, lost drive as the years commenced. It's so vexing. To excel is to live, we validate ourselves through the existence of others, the interactions with others. All things are relative, we move only in relation to other objects, we exist and form identities relative to the identities of others. (and then we write run-on sentences detailing our philosophies... heh)

I should be a prodigy.... that's how the cards were supposed to fall, right? I couldn't stand to be normal, second-best, a drop in the pond. I'll get it one of these days....